Going home!

We are heading back home today! YEAH! I am so excited. This was so much earlier than I expected so it definitely put a smile on my face when we got the call yesterday. Traveling with luggage and a small baby has been interesting but I am so excited to go home I dont even care! :) I cant wait to introduce Reagan to our boys and our family. We will all be together again.

In Arizona with Reagan

Sorry I havent updated you. Things have been crazy and I have had limited internet. This whole situation happened so quick, the way I like it! Last Wednesday we got a call from our agency letting us know about a little girl born early at 32 weeks gestation. She was doing well, are we interested? OF COURSE! By Thursday we got the news that the birth mom and dad signed papers that evening and we were on a plane the next morning. We arrived in Arizona around 2:00 or so and went straight to the hospital to meet Reagan. She was perfect. She was still on a feeding tube but improving everyday. We signed the papers that night and spent the next 5 days going back and forth to the hospital. After all love heals right? Soon enough the feeding tube came out, she was eating on her own, and the doctor came in on Tuesday to let us know they were discharging her the next day! Holy Moly! I wasnt expecting that! So here we are staying at Ronald McDonald House, which has been a huge blessing. She is growing like a week and just as cute as a button. She weighed 4 lbs. 13 oz. yesterday. We are heading back to the doc today. I am madly in love and now just cant wait to get her home to see her brothers. I miss my boys so much!

We found our baby Reagan

We are so excited to announce the birth of our baby girl Reagan Rae on September 16th. She was born early and is still in the NICU but doing fantastic. She is perfect in every way! I will fill you in more and put pictures up when I can. We are so blessed and just love her so much!

Wonderful Talk

My husband and I took a 2 hour car ride today to see a football game with the kids. While they were sleeping in the back seat we began our adoption talk. It is always nice to talk about where we are, where we are going, and what we are searching for. Especially as we approach our year of waiting in November it is good to sit back think, talk, and decide what will be our future. It is nice to know we are on the same page and we are able to talk about it and make each other feel better. We are starting a new church tomorrow that we are both so excited about. We have always wanted to go to this church but it was such a far drive for us, low and behold they opened a second location right near our house. A message from god? Maybe. We are both so excited to go!

Started to cry today.....

I started to cry today for the first time in 2 months. Yep todays marks 2 months since baby M was born and I didnt realize it would hit me as hard as it has. Besides the fact that it just doesnt seem like any situation is working out for us lately. It all came to a head today.
Today I had those feelings of- what if it never happens? What if we never find our baby R? I am not really sure what would happen. I guess I would go on with life with a small peice of my heart missing. I love my boys more than life itself so I know they would keep my smile strong. They are my rocks and the funniest thing is they dont even know it.
I really needed to clean the nursery today, it had been awhile since I had been in there and I knew it needed a dusting and a vaccum. When I walked in I got a little sad and wondered as I was folding one of the blankets, "will I ever use this." What would I do with that room if it never happens? I put that nursery together 8 months ago! WOW! 8 months ago I was so positive and excited and thought I would be hearing coos and cries from that room very soon. Here I was cleaning a room that no one goes in and I felt a bit silly, but I cleaned it and walked out closing the door behind me.
I am sure tomorrow will be a better day. We are all entitled to our sad days of feeling that it will never happen for us. This journey has definitely been a roller coaster. One minute I feel like we will have our baby before Christmas and the next minute I feel like I need to think about what I will do with the nursery when we realize we will never be placed with a baby. I will hold my boys extra tight today and be so thankful for what I have right now.

Someone's post:

This was posted on one of our adoption forums.......it speaks volumes and you can see why.

"Wait on Me My princess. My timing is always perfect. I know you're anxious about many things, and I see your passion for all the plans I have put in your heart. I know that you long to fly, and I see your enthusiasm. However, just as a vinedresser nurtures the vine and waits patiently for the right moment to harvest the grapes, so am I working tirelessly to prepare you to bear much fruit. Don't run ahead of Me or try to fly before My plans are complete. Your strength will fail you and your dreams will wither away. Trust Me that My dreams for you are far greater than you can dream on your own. You will run farther and soar higher if you will patiently wait for the season of My blessing. Draw close to Me now, and I promise that this season of waiting will bring you the sweetest of rewards."

Cute project for school

My oldest son came home on Friday with the cutest project for preschool. He was chosen to bring home the class pet, "Buscuit". ( a stuffed animal) You keep the dog all weekend and journal what you did and take pictures. When you return to school on Monday you bring the doggie back with your journal and tell the class what you did with him all weekend. It is so cute. Let me tell you when my son came out of his classroom on Friday you would have thought he won the lottery. It worked out perfect too because we were going to the vet that day with our dog so we had the vet take pictures with the stuffed animal, it was perfect. We had a great weekend putting this project together and I am so glad that my son thought it was awesome!