Merry Christmas

I hope that everyone had a great Christmas. It was definitely great for us. The kids were all blessed with many wonderful toys and to top it off we had our complete family. I thought a lot about how grateful we are to have our family complete over the holidays. It was such a wonderful feeling.

Baby Reagan smiles!

Yes it happened. Our princess smiled and oh how glorious it was! Being that she is a preemie we never know when she will do something and what will take a little longer than another child her age. She has been all smiles since and we love it!
We had our annual Christmas party over the weekend. What a great time that was! Many of our friends got to meet Reagan and I know they had been waiting awhile to do so. We had a Santa come to see the children and they loved that.
We are counting down the days until Christmas. This is such a special Christmas for so many reasons. We now have our complete family and William and Lucas are just so excited and SO into Christmas and Santa. Christmas morning is going to be so exciting.

2 Months!

Our princess is now 2 months old! Can you believe it! I cant! She is growing fast and doing so well. We went in last Thursday for her doc appt and she weighed in at 8 lbs 12oz. The doctor looked at her and said, "So this is what you would have probably weighed at birth!" The doctor was so happy that she had gained as much as she had. She is holding her head up more and more everyday. I try to make sure we do tummy time at least twice a day. For a preemie that is so important. She is so laid back and just watches everyone! She loves to focus on your face and she loves when the boys come over and talk to her. She still sleeps a lot but heck she is really only suppsed to be about a week and a half old! She will hold on to her passie, which she loves!
We just love her so much and cant get enough of her!

** UPDATE** You will see my previous post on the birth mom from July. I talked to her a lot as she got closer to the day she was planning to sign. We texted tons back and forth. Eventhough I couldnt hear her voice I sensed her nervousness. I talked her through a lot of her pain that day and hopefully made her feel at peace with her decision. She texted me the next day letting me know that she had signed TPR and Baby K went to a family that night. She didnt want to meet the family, she told me that it would be too hard since she got too emotional attached to us. I can understand that. I have tried to contact her since this talk but she has not answered. I remember the last time she was about to sign with us and her grandmother turned off her cell phone so I have a feeling the same thing happened this time. I pray for her often and hope that she is doing well and so if Baby K.

Our Third Birth Mom changed her mind again

You can look back in our blog and find our July 09 failed placement, what a mess that was. It was pure heartache. Luckily Reagan came into our lives and that heartache melted away. Sunday night we get a text from that July birth mom saying she wants to place her baby. WOW! Didnt expect that one. The baby is now about 3 months old and she has realized she really cant do it on her own. It is a weird feeling knowing that we can not adopt that baby. Being the adoptive parents that were there for the birth and now someone else is going to be adopting her is very strange. But at the same time I am so grateful because we wouldnt have Reagan if she had decided to place back in July. Like I said it is such a weird feeling. The birth mom and I are texting each other, I feel as though we have a bond and we are drawn to each other. I am glad she is making the decision that is best for her baby girl. I cant imagine how hard that decision is now. This absolutely reminds me that god does things for a reason, if she had made this decision in September we wouldnt have our Reagan now. I just think it is amazing how things work out the way they are supposed to.

Bad Blogger

I have been so bad at blogging. I have a hard enough time getting on the internet now with three littles ones. Reagan is doing great and growing so fast. We have had a busy few weeks. I look forward to seeing her weight this week at the doctor.
Halloween started out good. The kids looked adorable. By the end of the night we had two very sick little boys. Come Sunday morning we had two high fevers and my husband took the boys to the hospital. Pretty sure they have H1N1 but they wouldnt test them for it. They just put them on tamaflu and sent them home. We are now trying to keep germs away from reagan so the boys are secluded to their rooms and I am keeping Reagan away from them completely. That is the last thing we need is her getting sick. So now to keep momma and daddy healthy as well!
Hopefully I can update more often, especially now that we are all homebound and resting as much as possible.

Going home!

We are heading back home today! YEAH! I am so excited. This was so much earlier than I expected so it definitely put a smile on my face when we got the call yesterday. Traveling with luggage and a small baby has been interesting but I am so excited to go home I dont even care! :) I cant wait to introduce Reagan to our boys and our family. We will all be together again.

In Arizona with Reagan

Sorry I havent updated you. Things have been crazy and I have had limited internet. This whole situation happened so quick, the way I like it! Last Wednesday we got a call from our agency letting us know about a little girl born early at 32 weeks gestation. She was doing well, are we interested? OF COURSE! By Thursday we got the news that the birth mom and dad signed papers that evening and we were on a plane the next morning. We arrived in Arizona around 2:00 or so and went straight to the hospital to meet Reagan. She was perfect. She was still on a feeding tube but improving everyday. We signed the papers that night and spent the next 5 days going back and forth to the hospital. After all love heals right? Soon enough the feeding tube came out, she was eating on her own, and the doctor came in on Tuesday to let us know they were discharging her the next day! Holy Moly! I wasnt expecting that! So here we are staying at Ronald McDonald House, which has been a huge blessing. She is growing like a week and just as cute as a button. She weighed 4 lbs. 13 oz. yesterday. We are heading back to the doc today. I am madly in love and now just cant wait to get her home to see her brothers. I miss my boys so much!